婆婆- glimmer of hope

Do u believe in destiny?
When, everything seems to be so miraclely arranged
and way too short for you to think of why!

1 month ago,
I was just going through life expecting everything to fall beautifully into place.
Things that happenned had greatly bang me for awakening!
I was jobless and the next thing was to continue with job hunting and interview...
I am directionless but just continue to do what others were doing

2 weeks later,
Grandma passed away. I was badly hit!
There were no call for interview and nor did I have heart to put effort in the job hunting.
I was totally sad with the bad news again..
I have never been this terribly terribly sad before.

After the whole funeral ceremony,
I was offered by a company.
I took a week to rest for mental adjustment and
to recover from the lost, sadness!
Should I say that:
I am starting myself in new, and found there was a lot to live for..?
Yea, I must be optimistic, telling myself that everything will be fine!!!

When you feel life is kinda not working out. Don't give up!
No one ever said life was going to be easy
Each of us is truly unique and we all have strength that we didn’t even know we had.
There is still at least a glimmer of hope on everything.
<~~blink blink~~>
To be anything, be happy and optimistic!
A heart for u

Happy Ending for grandma

I do knew that I will be loosing grandma at one day.
And...the 'day' came and she left us..
Proudly, it was 101 years old!
A very happy ending for her indeed!
we were there to accompany her.
Just, I was truly/immensely reluctant to loose her
Someone I adore and love

I had been living with grandma ever since I was a baby
was sleeping the same room with grandma for 10 years.
The sadness could never instantly recover nor go away.
All I need, time, slowly..
2 years ago,
she falled down that her leg was becoming weak.
She remained speechless for year.
She was unabled to let us know that she was sick or cold or hot
we just could guess it.
She was still so tough to live with life for at least a few more years

After a few days of her going are cloudy.
Not too getting used of it
As I pass by her room..
something always there was not there anymore!
I tend to wanna walk to her room to look at her,
forgotten that she was gone.
Looking at the time, thought to get her bathe and meal,
Again, forgotten that she was really gone.
Looking at the closet, clothes and blanket,
I am thinking of her , reflashing her voice
U know,
We won't feel the real pain until we lost it forever.

I miss her, brother also misses her ..
Grandma will be blissful in the heaven and she will bless all of us.
But, I know that she is going to another awesome world!
I Know that I am not alone and this pain will become bearable with time.
Forever Good Bye to her!