婆婆走了

我接了电话，
接着听到了一句话，婆婆。。
我再问，婆婆怎么了
妈妈说婆婆走了。。。
听完电话
我浑浑噩噩的，很害怕了

这个月，发生了很多事情，
我很怕自己会崩溃。。
但希望会更坚强了
小弟问我，
我还有一篇日记没有写
是不是应该写婆婆走了？
我头很重， 眼睛很捆，
更没有力气忍着那泪滴
脸颊上滑落的泪水模糊了视线。。
仿佛停顿在那个心痛的瞬间
大哭了起来

直到她去世的前一刻
我那坚强的婆婆始终都没有哭过
婆婆辛劳，艰苦了一生，为着孩子而生活着。
她是我所见过的最坚强的人
但您的离开，
我深知是一种安慰，
婆婆累了，
她走得很慈祥，很亲切。。
她会在佛國世界里永享天樂。。

加油。。。

没有尝试这样的过每一天，像苦中求乐。。
这个3月六日来临后，心情是怪怪的。。。
不像那时刚毕业出来找工的心情，
因为那一刻虽是彷徨但却不失轻松的。。
而这一刻是紧张又期待，
不知什么时候会回来？
虽然好不容易
但我懂我可以应付，调节。。

清晨还是自然而然的醒了
嘻嘻，没错，当然又睡回去。。
过后，又醒了。。
就一定会检查电子信箱
看一看电话，facebook
就将一天过了。。。
不行，怎么可以这样？？？
我就收拾我的书，卡片，自己竟然曾写了4-5本日记（哇！）
一本一本翻开来看，以前还蛮幼稚的。。
内容超搞笑..

我告诉自己要过个充实的每一天。。
要尽自己的能力去办每一件事情
关键是
要有一个适合的尺度。。
适当地让自己放松。。。。
呼吸，吸气，象唱歌一样
不准一直把自己绷得太紧。。
要不就像弹簧一样。。一直绷着会收不会来的..
每天都是全新的一天，ok!!
加油啊。。。

Memory

The bad news of my company was well-known everywhere and sad to say I was affected. Didn't have a methodology for dealing with this large changes, but human can ( sometimes) be even stronger than you thought he could be. During this period of time, we never cease to be advised by people around to be strong, be prepared and don't panic. Probably, it is a good thing, a turning point and who knows a better one is ahead of us. And, really, who knows?

I might reasonably think that the story is over. But it isn't quite when I could start a new chapter of life in "all of a sudden".

I would like to tell u guys that I stil
missed every single tiny happy moments with u guys!
missed walking from PM1 to PM2 under the scorching sun.
missed the list with the tester time and who got 2 use the tester!
missed thinking of where to eat when it is approaching 12pm..
missed the mail with the subject: New Case on 6 March!
missed calling to 32261 looking 4 Ah Day and he gently reply "Hamisu?".
missed eating Apolo, wang wang in the cube
missed writing report while listening to "Gotta be Somebody"

I'd never thought that the bond could be this strong, but thing does change. I was reluctant but I need to make a move, march forward..