婆婆走了

我接了电话，
接着听到了一句话，婆婆。。
我再问，婆婆怎么了
妈妈说婆婆走了。。。
听完电话
我浑浑噩噩的，很害怕了

这个月，发生了很多事情，
我很怕自己会崩溃。。
但希望会更坚强了
小弟问我，
我还有一篇日记没有写
是不是应该写婆婆走了？
我头很重， 眼睛很捆，
更没有力气忍着那泪滴
脸颊上滑落的泪水模糊了视线。。
仿佛停顿在那个心痛的瞬间
大哭了起来

直到她去世的前一刻
我那坚强的婆婆始终都没有哭过
婆婆辛劳，艰苦了一生，为着孩子而生活着。
她是我所见过的最坚强的人
但您的离开，
我深知是一种安慰，
婆婆累了，
她走得很慈祥，很亲切。。
她会在佛國世界里永享天樂。。

加油。。。

没有尝试这样的过每一天，像苦中求乐。。
这个3月六日来临后，心情是怪怪的。。。
不像那时刚毕业出来找工的心情，
因为那一刻虽是彷徨但却不失轻松的。。
而这一刻是紧张又期待，
不知什么时候会回来？
虽然好不容易
但我懂我可以应付，调节。。

清晨还是自然而然的醒了
嘻嘻，没错，当然又睡回去。。
过后，又醒了。。
就一定会检查电子信箱
看一看电话，facebook
就将一天过了。。。
不行，怎么可以这样？？？
我就收拾我的书，卡片，自己竟然曾写了4-5本日记（哇！）
一本一本翻开来看，以前还蛮幼稚的。。
内容超搞笑..

我告诉自己要过个充实的每一天。。
要尽自己的能力去办每一件事情
关键是
要有一个适合的尺度。。
适当地让自己放松。。。。
呼吸，吸气，象唱歌一样
不准一直把自己绷得太紧。。
要不就像弹簧一样。。一直绷着会收不会来的..
每天都是全新的一天，ok!!
加油啊。。。

Memory

The bad news of my company was well-known everywhere and sad to say I was affected. Didn't have a methodology for dealing with this large changes, but human can ( sometimes) be even stronger than you thought he could be. During this period of time, we never cease to be advised by people around to be strong, be prepared and don't panic. Probably, it is a good thing, a turning point and who knows a better one is ahead of us. And, really, who knows?

I might reasonably think that the story is over. But it isn't quite when I could start a new chapter of life in "all of a sudden".

I would like to tell u guys that I stil
missed every single tiny happy moments with u guys!
missed walking from PM1 to PM2 under the scorching sun.
missed the list with the tester time and who got 2 use the tester!
missed thinking of where to eat when it is approaching 12pm..
missed the mail with the subject: New Case on 6 March!
missed calling to 32261 looking 4 Ah Day and he gently reply "Hamisu?".
missed eating Apolo, wang wang in the cube
missed writing report while listening to "Gotta be Somebody"

I'd never thought that the bond could be this strong, but thing does change. I was reluctant but I need to make a move, march forward..

House warming

I love warmth, comfortable, clean, airy and peaceful house. Be it only a small room/house, i just wan a beautiful,spacious and inviting bed. Probably,I'm just too scare to fall down from the bed.
Other than that, I wan a bunch of lovely, fluffy pillows position at every corner of the bed, so I can hug them at whatever position that is reachable to me.(Love shape, rectangular shape, round shape and square shape)
Am currently excitedly imagine that I've totally owned them!
Perfect! =)

甜甜的甜品

一个习惯，
吃饱了还想吃甜品，
在外头也一样，
吃了晚餐后，有想吃甜品的念头。
倒是怪，在工业区一带，没有什么甜品店。
在家里的冰厨，少不了我爱吃得黑朱古力或者普通的我都吃。
吃饱了，就很自然的开冰厨，
一颗朱古力摆入口里，
然后，甘愿了，满足了才去刷牙，再穿牙套。
贪吃的我。。。=D
可能是妈妈常常煮糖水，
红豆汤，绿豆汤，薏米水，白木耳龙眼糖水。。
让我爱上种种的甜品，
如蛋糕，冰淇淋，也是挺好吃的！
但不喜欢偏甜的。。。因为吃多点就腻了
想着用勺子一口一口舀着吃。很幸福啊。

这些食物都是容易令人发胖的甜点，
专家建议还是少吃微妙。
但，偶尔开心吃一颗应该没什么大问题吧？
有没有发现到其实不用真的吃，
单单望着那些照片也会好开心？
望梅止渴！！

The Kiwi Blended from KIM GARY. It is very nice, my all time favourite! It's just too icy that I sometimes have to melt the ice in the mouth before swallow in.

I love to eat cakes, I just love ice cream cake. The ice cooling filled cake makes me frost!

It's Ferrero Rocher Chocolate. These hazelnut chocolate that melts in the mouth is so unresistable!

Mc Donald Choco Topping Soft Ice Cream. Yum Yum! Every bite is just as delicious as the first bite.

2009年第一个贴

新年应该要有新希望，而在新的一年我有了这迟来的贴
一下子只想到这几个希望,可能日子再过,希望会更多..

1.我希望我工作顺顺利利.好多负面公司谣言听得我糊里糊涂.求神拜佛..撑下去!
2.我要去旅行...已经2年没有搭飞机,送机就蛮频的..几时才好? 经济又不好,我一下又不想实行啦.(low priority.)
3.我要步步高升..万事如意..龙马精神..自我增值
4.我要跳绳,爬山,跑步...hampalang运动都要试,健康点
5.我要用2个星期来复习日文,其实是因为华人新年后就会考试了,要过关啊

在小时候会憧憬说等我长大了就会幸福...
也许读这个,进修那个; 蓄长发,减留海;
流长指甲,染金头发;打工,赚钱;买这个,收集那个;
很多梦想..说不完;
后来我们上大学了；
认识朋友,大家聊天说笑的日子很快过;
一旦考试到了,就会努力加油;ganbatte
5年一眨眼过了
然后毕业就烦恼申请什么样的公司, 打份什么样的职位?
后来当了上班族;
有了自己的收入，却开始换债,供车,花费;
怎么这时候原来还不是幸福的尽头？
体验过才知道，
上班了，视野目标不一样了
面对的人和世界不一样了，
慌了什么时候要做什么样的抉择,
甚至一个简单的问题都要用满满的脑子去深思熟虑.
我们是不是顾虑更多？

曾读过文章说
"等待是没有尽头"
"其实我们都知道幸福只是一种感觉，是一个过程，
我们如果只看重了幸福的结果，
那我们就浪费了过程中的感觉"
说得很贴切!
记得: 没有一天是比今天更好的。
今天的日子要今天享受，今天的感觉要今天体会"
这样，你才能感觉到开心~

The dream and thoughts

很快的，圣诞节要来了，
虽然经济不景气，
但四周依然还是洋溢着圣诞歌声及摆设
琳琅满目的圣诞礼品摆设让购物者有更多的选择。。
大家也纷纷等待度过这温馨浪漫欢乐的节日。
我也有期待，一直期待有假期的到来，也期待下雪，　
我没有体验过冷天的季节，也没有体验过寒冷的海风 。。
但这次假期真的来临了，顿时不懂有什么节目好搞的
如果会下雪，那我一定天天靠在窗边赏雪。。。一定超冷。。
而滑雪又是什么feel？一定超棒的！

新的一年也要来临了
开始有了一种奇妙的感觉，感觉生命要换季了，换轨道了
回想在这 2008年里，
曾与不同的人萍水相逢， 悲欢离合。。。
曾见朋友离去，有依依不舍的感觉。。。
曾尝过Gelato icecream, 加埋彬淇淋的蛋糕，香香和甜甜又冷冷的！！哇！
爱吃冰冰甜甜的食物， 但女生不可以吃那么多。。。
去了云顶，去了浪卡威（langkawi),
竟也爬了两次我以为不会有第二次的山(Monkey Beach)。
从短发留到了中长发，烫了离子烫。。
收集了自己喜爱的包包，香水，润扶液，裙子。。。
我真得很满足了 。。
新年我提醒自己不要乱乱花钱了，都是经济不好。
也有了一部属于自己的相机， 可以让我随时随地，
是也拍，不是也拍到乱的过瘾至极 ！！
让我有可以搜藏的回忆以及满满的触动 。。

你知道吗，
生命有时就像万里追寻，　
需要我们常常调整心态，
时时 装备armer，要冲， 要挡
有时会失落，有时会开心，
不是一条直线。。。
但风也不是只吹右边或东边..
总听过什么叫雨后会有彩虹吧?
慢慢细嚼生活的品味吧 。。学不完
明年我要干嘛。。让我ponder ponder....嘻嘻。。待续 =p




今年里，我最爱的照片！谢谢你咯。。。

wishes in my lovely december

The year, month December is a special month for me
The month that I will be counting the days off to the new year 2009;
The month that have me borned back in 24 years.
The month that i had japanese exam;
The month that I wish to be romance and relax every day
The month that will be celbrating christmas and
The month that i am eating more n more... fat liao fat liao...


First, is the souvenir from Japan

look at the colourful candies, we are more than reluctant to have them eaten...they just looks so awesome and wonderful and could immediately made the emotion become high and merry!
Guess what? The right figure are Erasers...each of us get a type of eraser and i have picked the grape/milk/orange bottle.

Now, Am working and happy to work with my colleagues!

I am 24th......so fast....so fast....stop the time leh...Terrible to see that the age is adding year by year~~

delicious yummy meal which is a mixture of hainan and nyonya style. i specially favour the nyonya curry fish as well as the nyonya rendang chicken!

Ok, I knew I over smiled d....*Blushed*

The friendship that started in MMU
i do really love the ice cream cake. It melts in my mouth and in my heart too! Wish to sing Give me give me...more~~~

I made a whish for this birthday..Arigatou Gozaimasu

For my caring Fen from Secondary school

This hang fuk lady is always so caring that melted my heart. i do love the octopus-kia. Already put them all together...muaks..

i have added a family member for the octopus~~

Last but not least,

Qian who can't wait to wish for me 2 fly to UK. When i heard the story told by u that u would want to go market with me to make dishes together, I am overwhelmed...

The snowy garden outside your resident area is so frosty white.

Cheryl~

I would love to send my thanks through the air and hug hug u for the delivery! Remember to be careful and take good care of yourself when u are alone in the far land from me. =p but I know you can make it . 3 gals, 3 different destiny!

And

another is for u, thank you too.....!!! =)

An independant week

记忆中, 我对烹饪不熟.

但妈吗临去香港旅行时, 买了一堆菜,鱼,肉要我煮给家人吃

前一夜,简单的说了些烹饪手法,要我通通搞掂~~

很兴奋,整个厨房由我主宰!

认真告诉我自己我要独立!

可是...我只煮了三天, 就投降了...

原来煮并不累,而是洗刷那些'砂煲朗昌'累了..

庆幸有爸和弟当我的食物白老鼠...

1st day: The most satisfying meal I made!

(i)Fried KFC Chicken.. =p this one i like it.

(ii) steamed egg with crab stick,

(iii)simple vege and

(iv)soup!

The 2nd day: Haih...not success in frying the fish..The fish skin got sticked on the kuali . Got so upset and my brother laughed at me of my failure.

The tauge was fried with small dried prawn while the assorted vegetable is cooked with muschrom and some crab stick. These 2 dishes at least still eatable.

The 3rd day, I woke up with a good mood and headed to the kitchen to prepare a simple breakfast with sausage, ham, egg. red bean, bread with butter and cheese.~~I prepared 3 sets each for me, brother and father.

3rd day lunch: Fried rice with sausages and egg..No preservative added. Healthy food oh.

4th day: heheheheh...I am lazy.

4th day: Tabao-ing Mc D~~~ I like fries and Mc Flurry Oreo the most. Ya, is fattening. i know i know! but....but...yummy wo

5th day: Eat Duck meat rice

6th day: Eat Bak Kut Teh and mum is back~~

When I go to airport to fetch my mum, I saw Bosco which I couldn't believe it.. I thought and still couldn't believe that i actually bump into him. I called my friend and was asked to rush up to him and shouted BOSCO loudly. hehe, of course i didn't do that...as Bosco was already out of my view when I hang up the phone.

oh no no!

我这只大头虾不知什么时候才会改掉那不小心的习惯
前几天不小心忘了关车油盖...
打完油,就很轻松上车踩油phiu走了
驾驶到红绿灯时, 红灯我停车....
然后,瞄到旁边车主在车里比手画脚
暗蒙蒙,我用了10秒才懂他要告诉我油盖boh kam...
我才惊慌了...这次真的omg!
该怎么半? gin jeong..
现在下车, 来不及了, 红灯就快变绿了
心里只想到要不打讯号灯, 待会儿停车,下车关上
这时,突然一个救星出现了...
一个见到我油盖boh kam的motor骑士
敲了我镜子并说 : lu eh yiu gua boh kam la, wa ka lu kam la! (油盖没关啦, 我帮你关!)
心底真的万分感激他的热心!
我真的松了一口气, 世上还有好心人嘠,他好像superman!
事后告知朋友说还好早发现,不然,油遇上氧气就爆了!危险
下次还是要小心 >.<

那

还记得我曾经想过..
某天以前
对自己有了要求
某天以后
压力就跟随而来…
不懂这些要求和压力在什么时候
已经开始有了联系

在心理
总是有个疑问句
为什么经过了那么多的考验,
日后,再次面对考验时
心里竟然还会感觉彷徨
不是应该可以得心应手了吗?

那是不是什么状况下都会彷徨?
那是不是不能在这样下去?
那你说我该怎么办?

(那么多疑问哦?)

那
太阳还不是照样每天照着地球,
地球还不是照样每天都在旋转
谁会管你有多少 ‘那’
彷不彷徨, 或继不续啊..!

还发呆哦?
那 就深呼吸吧
努力学习吧

你不在,我要勇敢

是真的

不会永远都是一直这样在一起
看着别人来了又去..

留下的回忆是一世人的, 那平凡却不失珍贵的回忆

这一次我真的骗不了自己.

看着时间一秒一秒的接近你要离开的时间

我不敢多说一句我舍不得你

因为我眼眶湿了

我不要把你也弄哭了

你只是拼命告诉我再见了

而我就 拼命不让泪水掉下来

忍泪目送你走入机仓

我看见你转身不敢回头,急忙的一直向前走,

知道你也在哭了

一个人驾车回家的路程变得很漫长

泪水不听话的一直在流

拭了,擦了一滴又一滴不可收拾的泪

那种难舍的心情好难承受

我没法解释我失落的心情

不去想但偏偏不经意又在想

我觉得很胆怯很害怕

一个人走着走着

陪着自己的朋友渐渐少了

一个来,过一个

每个人都有自己的路要走

我知道遇到你是我的荣幸

快乐因为我感觉你对我的关心

当你也不在我身边时

我该要如何渡过?

我到底需要多少勇敢来适应?

但我真的替你开心

终于出国深造了

怎么办

明天就是中秋节

可是我一点都没 '奔月' 感觉

提灯笼,没劲

吃月饼,还有少少期待

毕竟只想要静静

但回过头，天空无法晴朗

看着婆婆渐渐消瘦的体魄和瘦削的肩膀

察觉到心里真的充满害怕，空气里充满回音。。

那一年，那一天，她还坐着看我们提灯笼

但这一天已回不到那天，

就连是中秋节她也似懂非懂了

想要有点微醉把我的心迷惑。

我勇敢呼吸，努力去适应。

这害怕的心情

有人说好脾气，就会让心情坏不起来。

还要吹眠自己真的会勇敢，

希望小天使能令我安枕！

当我遇到困难都守在我旁。。。。

我很想很想很任性的说

我不知道...不管...不管....不管

只要婆婆安乐就好

不要心情差就是了

然后抱枕大睡
我懂中秋节是应当要快乐的, 我会好好的

是是是

就是将

地球转了半个圈 ,
天亮了,
我也醒了
发现梦里的画面不见了,
只留下疲惫的面容 和苦苦的笑容

那一刻的自己还是停留在同一个点
停着想着....
怎么还是同样的一个点
就是这样吗?
要等到失而复得后才懂得珍惜
就是这样吗?
梦游都只宁愿相信明天会更好
就是这样,
不到关键时刻都不会知道痛的感觉
就是这样
给了自己很多借口来让心里少了畏惧！
我不愿意只看到那沉沉的步伐
很多感觉是说也说不明白...
像一首无旋律的曲子
我不贪心
你教我输入永恒的跳跃
有了自己和心跳的陪伴
我就会自己走下去了
我想
我只是对美丽人生有着满满的憧憬!

爱相随

A love that doesn't need much to say...

I appreciate true friends

treasure people around me with sincerity...

and now...

My soul feel so glad that I meet you gals.

A new journey/start for two of you...

A greatest prize to pursue the dream in a fantasy land.

Wherever it may lead,

let's cross the line and it is time to try the new destiny!

I hope I can deal with the things when u gals aren't around...

I used to think that I was strong until I realized I ain't so strong anymore...

Just felt my world is falling apart.

Now u are gone

it's time for me to carry on

U r the sweetest thing in my heart that I could never have forgotten!

Moments are captured and the breathe is melted

Miss U